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I am always searching...
for grades
for fames
for praises
for something I thought which is important to me
but there is no peace in my heart
even I had accomplished the goal I set for myself in the end
I still feel frustrated inside
There is ain't happiness out there but only emptiness...
again and again covered my head
And it is pity that I can not get those fucking damn shits out of my mind
"You've been lost." you said.
(I know...
But where should I go to find myself back?)
"Only yourself know the answer."
(But the question is I have no idea!")
"...." The silence is the last responce you gave me.
Well, thank you anyway
It is all about myself, anyway
Finally I have to cope with it all by myself
not within anybody's help
(advices and encouragements do little work...
when it meet the human nature.)
Some said I should not tie myself with the answerless-thoughts rope
It only captures one when you touched it.
But I can't stop
Stop thinking...
What can I do.....?
Do it be the best solution to me if I turn my head away from it?
Do it really console my heart?
I do not think so
Still, it will be there, just like a endless black hole
eat everything good and the bright sides which support your mind
Well... maybe
Being ignorance is a much better way when we face the real world

































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